Benjamin

Yesterday, my oldest baby turned 10…and I can hardly believe it. We celebrated big! Tacos, cake, a bajillion crazy boys in my back yard. It was perfect.

I can so vividly remember being in labor (for a day and a half) with him and wondering all the things. Everything from what he would look like to whether or not I was even ready to be his momma. I remember how deliriously tired Austin and I both were when the ordeal was finally over, ending with him being delivered by c-section after 3 hours of pushing. He broke this momma right in to motherhood.

Isaiah 55:8-9 “‘For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,’ declares the Lord. ‘As the Heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.'”

Lots of things haven’t gone the way I thought they would, beginning with his grand entry into the world, and that’s so ok. And if there’s anything I’ve learned since I had this little baby boy, it’s that. Things don’t always go as planned. More often than not, things turn out looking zero percent like you thought they would. But also, you always can handle more than you thought, and learn much more than you’d ever expect, in the process. God’s grace is always enough, and His plans are always bigger and better than ours. These are facts, sister.

These are also just a few of the lessons I want to leave my precious boy and his sisters with. Dream big, hard, scary dreams, because He always delivers. Don’t be scared of reaching “too high”, or asking “too much”, because His plans for you are always bigger and better than the ones for yourself. And friend, I’m telling you the same. Dream your dreams, set your goals, and reach high. I can just about promise that it won’t end up looking like you’d planned, but that’s ok, because His ways are higher…and always better.